The 31st day

Where did the title for this blog come from. What does "My 31st day" mean? My wife and I already had 2 girls. I also have a teenage son from a previous marriage. When she told me she was pregnant again it was no surprise. We had talked about it so I was cool with it. When she told me it was twins, my knees buckled and I almost fell on the ground. Okay. No problem. We can do this. I had recently gotten a promotion at work and was in upper management. She was staying home to care for the older girls but we were certain that we could tighten the purse strings and make it work. I'll skip through a lot and get to the most important stuff. The day came when the twins were born. They were 6 weeks pre-mature but otherwise healthy. This meant a stint in the NICU. Thankfully, this NICU was at a local hospital. I came home from work and my wife and I would go to the hospital. The main problem the twins were having was eating and breathing at the same time. When they ate they would stop breathing, something very common in premees. The oldest twin came home after 18 days. We were rejoicing but sad because the younger twin had to stay by herself in the NICU. A bittersweet moment for sure. Every day we would think that it was her turn to come home but she was still having the problem. The nurses assured us that everything was fine. Some babies take a little longer. It was excruciating though. She did fine when mommy fed her but overnight she would have spells when she would stop breathing. Her heart rate would drop. We felt like we could handle this at home until she was up to speed but the doctors really wanted the nursed to be at the ready just in case. We inquired of the Lord and asked why the second twin couldnt come home too? Nevertheless not our will, but the Lords be done. Finally the day came when she could come home too. 31 days later. We were thrilled. We didnt know why it had taken so long but it didnt matter now. We were all home. One big family. A few days later a letter came in the mail. Because the second twin had been in the NICU for over 30 days she was eligible for institutionalized Medicaid. What my insurance didnt pay, the state did. Praise the Lord!! Thats why she had to stay. It had to be 31 days. Never again will I question the length of the battle or valley that God has for me. He knows the future and sees everything. He has it all in control if I will let him. Now I'm in another long valley. I have been laid off since December 2, 2008. I'm having a hard time finding a job like the one I had. A job that pays enough for my wife to still stay home and for us to be able to stay in our house. Of course I am praying and asking God for an end to this job search but I now realize that it is not the 31st day yet. He sees the future and knows everything and there is a reason that I am still unemployed. When its time for me to find a job He will give it to me. I just have to let go and trust in Him. He didnt let us down with the twins and he wont let us down this time. If you're going through something and you see no end in sight, do not worry. Dont dispair. God sees the future and knows everything. Its not your 31st day. Hang in there. When day 31 comes, you'll know all you need to know then. God bless you.